My poor baaaaby! Man, it doesn't help that people keep saying that he needs to die now. No. No! It's never too late!
I'm better now. I just get these bouts of like extreme depression it seems. But I think for this time it was because I hadn't taken my vitamins in a couple days due to being scatterbrained. But I'm good right now! Loving the baby and capable of taking care of her. I just need to focus on her and ignore what some people say or do and count my blessings.
I just wish people weren't so mean about wanting him dead. I mean, I guess that's been a constant throughout, but now that it really looks like he will, it kills me. Not that I want him to live through this, I just want him somewhat redeemed, and now I made myself sad thinking of ways.
I mean...it sucks that people are so rude or blunt about it but it's just been kinda pulled through for SO LONG that it's almost annoying. I bet you read all the reasons people put, I know I did. Before I read the chapter, I was pretty steamed about people being so how people reacting but afterwards, I kinda share the same. I'm not gonna argue because there's no need to. I just hope something will level out all this bullshit.